When I offered free sponsor spots on my blog,
my email was flooded was people requesting a spot, and saying wonderful things like:
"I love your blog, you are such a wonderful mom."
It totally made my day! Seriously.
Then I started feeling a little guilty...
What if they knew that sometimes...I suck...bad.
What if I ran into someone in the grocery store when my kids are having meltdowns?
Or when I'm on my way to preschool looking entirely disheveled.
So, to ease my conscience, I thought I'd let you in on the truth...
Some truths about my life as a mom:
1. I can't figure out bedtime. It's actually really frustrating. I think my kids' bedtime is 8:00. So, Nate gets home at 6 and we have dinner. Around 7 we start baths. My kids LOVE the bath and want to stay and play for an hour. Usually I let them because it keeps them entertained while I pick up the house and clean up dinner. At 8 we make them get out of the bath. But we can't put them straight to bed because I just put the baby down and I don't want him to wake up. So, we do jammies and brush teeth and say prayers, and then put them in their bed. Then they get up. Bridger needs a drink. Saxon has to pee. Someone is hungry. Someone needs to be snuggled. Someone wants a story...etc. Pretty soon it's 10 (ok...sometimes 11) by the time they fall asleep.
2. I buy my kids each a donut at the grocery store to keep them entertained in the cart while I shop. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But since I buy the treat first, I can't use the "if you're not good...no treat!" threat.
3. Sometimes I get a diet coke for breakfast. Then my kids all want some. Then we all drink diet coke for breakfast.
4. Sometimes I let my kids sleep in my bed. I can't resist. When they sneak in during the middle of the night, I snuggle them. I can't resist a sleepy, cuddly little kid. Maybe this is contributing to problem #1 (remember how I suck at bedtime?)
5. Eating healthy is important to me. Very important. I try to make everything from scratch and I experiment and make sure that my kids always get a variety of vegetables. And yet...I didn't take away any of their Halloween candy. I was either going to be the mean mom who took it away, or an irresponsible mom who let them have it all. I couldn't bring myself to be the mean mom after they had worked so hard to collect all of the candy. So, they kept it all, and have been eating candy non-stop for a week.
6. I never turn down doing something fun in order to maintain "the schedule." If we get invited to go to the movies but it will end after bedtime...we go anyway. If we feel like going to the indoor pool instead of doing naptime...we do it. Whenever we have the chance to go and do something, we do. Apparently I suck at strict schedules too.
7. I take my kids everywhere. I can't afford to hire a babysitter, and I miss them when I'm not around them. Last year, the boys came with me to see Twilight. I'm sure everyone else in the theater really appreciated it LOL.
8. I get "charmed" easily. My kids know it too. If I'm yelling and they're being naughty, all they have to do is pull out the charm and they win me over. My mom told me once that I let them get away with too much because they're funny. It's true. But how mad can you be when you're laughing?
9. I'm still nursing Dalton. I know...I know...whatever you are thinking, I'm probably thinking too. It seems to be generally accepted to nurse a baby until they are 1. I nursed Saxon and Bridger until they were 6 months and we stopped without any problems. Dalton, however, won't give it up. Dalton turned one in September. I only give in and let him nurse once a day...but still...
10. The truth is...beyond anything else, I love my kids. Love them beyond measure. Beyond description. I can't fathom life without them. In fact I a worry a lot about "what if something happened to them..." because I can't bear to imagine life without them. I love them, and I try to deserve them. Motherhood takes a lot of work. Constant effort. So even though I suck (sometimes a lot) I try hard. And I hope that makes me the same as you...as most mothers out there. Constantly trying to do our best. Always learning, and always trying to be better.